Diary

As a child, I kept a diary.  I always wrote to God, …Dear God.  I wrote about all my problems mainly.  I added in some gratitude, thanking for this and that so as not to come off unappreciative.  I was also told not to just ask God for things all the time, show him that you recognise the blessings in your life.

As the years went on, I maintained this.  I was always thanking God for my family and whatever else came to mind that I was grateful for, aaaand then, ‘I’ would launch into my worries and concerns.

So I have decided today to continue on with my diary but to share this time.  The difference is I intend to always be speaking from my true Self.  I feel compelled to share this journey now but coming from an authentic place.  Where as before, I was so rooted in my ego, that anyone reading it would be pulled into misery and honestly going back and reading those journal entries, it was confusing.

I suppose understanding with the realisation I have now, I understand the transient nature of the ego, more the point, the duality of the ego.  In one sentence I would be saying something from one angle and then on the opposite side of the spectrum have a totally different argument.  None of it could be trusted. The words and beliefs were as a slippery as a snake. It made for a difficult and exhausting read for sure, you would get a headache. Such is the nature of the egoic state of mind!

What I appreciate through the self enquiry, the pointings, taught by Mooji, and his masters, Papaji and Sri Ramana Maharshi, is there is no confusion.  When you discover what is real, what is the truth, it does not change.  Doesn’t depend on the ocassion, not just in trivial moments is it going to stand up, but in a crisis it may fall. It is not one thing one minute and totally opposite the next because a neighbour revealed to it some further insight to solidify its position or because of something watched on the evening news.

It

Does

Not

Change

Ever

That is why what is True is True.  You can hang your hat on this.  It will still be there tomorrow, next month, next year, next lifetime, the lifetimes past and future for that matter.

Thank you Mooji and your teachers teachers, and all speakers and writers of the Truth.  Thank you for giving words to this discovery, for answering your call, I am listening.  I hear you.  I am following.